Hava’s Birth: My Planned Cesearan

We were so excited when we found out we were expecting our third child! It was kind of up in the air if we wanted one, but I guess God said we should!  Then the all-day-and-all-night vomiting set in. Caring for two other children while laying on the couch with a puke-bowl is not an easy task. Poor Zane would run to his room covering his ears whenever I had to throw up, Tzeitel would just watch. Thankfully halfway into my 2nd trimester I was doing much better.

Me at 37 weeks pregnant—> IMG_20160429_2045350

We knew this baby would have to be another C-section, because of how they had to perform Tzeitel’s (classical cuts have a higher risk of uterine rupture, which resulted in Hava being delivered early at 37 weeks). Soon the anxiety about having another surgery crept in. Tzeitel’s was really rough, so I anticipated it being a horrifying experience again. The months rolled on, the nervousness growing as they went. Sometimes I would feel so overwhelmed I would almost cry, other times I felt at peace with this being just something I had to do.  I had seven long months to dwell on the fact that my stomach and uterus were going to be cut open and sewn back shut (again!), whereas with Tzeitel’s I only had a few days to process this reality.

The day finally came, we arrived at the hospital about 6am, things moved pretty quickly and I was in the OR about 8am. Hava Suzanne was born at 8:31am on April 30, 2016 weighing 6lb 5oz and measuring 19.5″ long. They popped her over the curtain for me, she was so skinny and blue! She was adorable, but it really startled me. Our other two babies were chunkier, pinker, and cried more than Hava. It was concerning for me, I kept asking Jeremy and the anesthesiologist if everything was okay because I wasn’t hearing her cry as much as I felt she should have been. The actual C-section wasn’t that bad, I’m kind of glad I built it up in my mind for several months making the reality less traumatizing than I remember it being. Being concerned for my baby girl also helped with that.IMG_20160430_0902431

They wheeled us into recovery where I started nursing. I noticed Hava was trying very hard to breathe (retracting), so she was brought to the NICU. Having a baby in the NICU is one of the worst things a parent can go through, I don’t know how parents cope when their IMG_20160430_1346256babies are there for weeks or months on end. You know nothing about the condition of your baby, you’re separated from your baby, you’re running on just a few hours of sleep and some narcotics, all resulting in a sobbing new mommy. After awhile I visited Hava in the NICU, my spirits were raised when I saw how much pinker she was and her retractions were smaller. She spent about a total of 6 hours there before we were finally reunited.

Nursing had it’s ups and downs in the hospital.  With Hava catching on pretty well at first, followed by about 11 hours of refusing to eat hardly anything. You read that right, 11 hours. I finally had to pump, Jeremy had to cup-feed (which I didn’t know was possible), and the nurses helped her *finally* latch on and eat. Again after that she did very well. There were many tears shed during that night, I’m thankful Jeremy was there to see us through.

Going from 2 to 3 children is a huge adjustment. The last few weeks have been pure chaos between nursing, jealousy, lack of sleep, and just trying to keep up with 3 demanding kiddos. We are so very thankful for each one of them, God has truly blessed us.

We are now a family of 5!! My three precious babies.



Gender Prediction According to the “Old Wives”

Do old wives’ tales really have any merit? Or are they just a bunch of superstition and nonsense? I do believe sometimes they are true, like when babies get fevers and a rash when they are teething. If enough moms over a long enough time period notice a pattern, maybe there’s something to it than just coincidence. When it comes to baby gender prediction, however, there are some really crazy ones! Just for fun though, Jeremy and I have decided to do some of the more fun, less crazy old wives’ tales. We’ll see how smart these old wives really are!

Ring Test: Using a string, hang your wedding ring over your pregnant belly. You are having a girl if the ring swings back and forth and it’s a boy if it swings in a circle. Back and forth= Girl.

Mayan Tale: The Mayan tale adds the mother’s age at conception and the year of conception. If the result is an even number than mom is having a girl. If the result is an odd number then a boy is on the way! 29+2015= 2044 Girl.

Acne: If you have acne while pregnant, it’s a girl. It’s thought that acne during pregnancy is caused by the extra hormones. Yes= Girl.

Cravings: People believe that if you are craving salty foods while pregnant, you can count on having a boy. If you crave sweets, fruit, and orange juice, you are having a little girl. My cravings are kind of all over the place, but I haven’t been craving many sweet foods= Boy.

Skin under Left Eye: The eye test is when a “V” or “branches” appear when you pull down the skin under your left eye. If you see a “V” or “branches” in the white part, you’re having a girl. I have a V= Girl. (By the way, wouldn’t this be the same for every child, I mean, the veins in my eyes don’t change with pregnancy do they?)

Toddlers: If a toddler boy expresses interest in a pregnant woman, she is having a girl. If he doesn’t show interest, she’s having a boy. I haven’t been around any toddler boys who could tell I am pregnant= N/A

Side You Most Rest On: If a pregnant woman prefers to lay on her left side, she’s having a boy. If she prefers resting on her right side, she’s having a girl. Right= Girl.

What Do You Think?: 71% of the time, the mom-to-be knows what she is having. I’ve gone back and forth on this, but I’ve thought girl more than boy= Girl.

Morning Sickness: If you had a smooth pregnancy with no morning sickness, it’s a boy. If you were sick or felt really nauseous during your pregnancy, count on a girl. I’ve been really sick, similar to how I was with Zane but subsided after the 1st trimester. So, I don’t know about this one!

Heart Rate: If the baby’s heart rate is above 140 bpm, it is said that the baby will be a girl. If it is under 140 bpm, then it will be a boy. The doctor didn’t tell me the heart rate!

Feet: Are your feet colder now that you are pregnant? If so, you just might be having a boy. Not really, but it’s been a warm winter= Girl.

Baking Soda: Mix urine with baking soda. If it bubbles a lot, it is a boy. No bubbles= Girl.

Pencil on a String: Put a needle in the eraser of a sharp pencil, tie a string to the needle, hold it over your wrist (palm up). If the pencil sways from side-to-side means girl, sways up-and-down (hand to elbow) means boy. It mostly did a circle, haha, but moreso side-to-side= Girl.

Age + Month: Add your age to the month you conceived. If it’s an even number it’s a boy, if it’s an odd number it’s a girl. 29+8=37 Girl.

Tummy Standing: If you have another young child, lay down and have someone hold them on your stomach with their feet lightly touching. If they hold their feet still, it’s a boy. If they move their feet, it’s a girl. I know no young children to do this with= N/A.

Chinese Gender Calendar, which predicts a Boy.

Girl: 10

Boy: 2

Can’t wait to find out!!!!

SSM is not about me.

It’s one of their favorite arguments: “Why do you care if same-sex couples can marry? It doesn’t affect you or your marriage.”

Those who say this are correct. It won’t. Besides the slow, but steady, mockery of marriage first through adultery and flippant divorce, then same-sex marriage, next plural marriage and incest marriage. When it comes right down to it, my marriage is not affected. Christians can still have a good, solid, biblical marriage in the midst of this upside-down world. This leads me to my point: It’s not about me. It’s about GOD. SSM is against GOD’s word, who cares about me. Those who say “it won’t affect you” seem to believe I think everything centers around me. I’m flattered you are so very concerned about “affecting my marriage”[can you feel the sarcasm?], but it’s really not about me. It’s about someone way more important than me…GOD. His opinion is the only opinion that matters. Some people seem to never consider GOD and His feelings, and most really don’t want to consider GOD’s judgement and wrath that will come with disobedience. I say we should stop looking in the mirrors, caring only for our own desires, wants, and lusts. And we should start looking into our Bibles, and start caring for His desires, wants, and holiness.


My Response to the Supreme Court SSM Ruling

After my initial reaction of disgust, sorrow, and fear on Thursday. I quickly realized I am powerless to do anything. My only vengeance on our wicked nation and the wicked decision is my obedience. 2 Corinthians 10:6 And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled. You wouldn’t think this is adequate revenge, and sometimes it’s not. However, there’s something about truly striving to be obedient in the midst of a perverse land.

I pray God withholds His judgment until He rescues the just out of the land (Lot in Sodom and Gomorrah anyone?). Ultimately, though, collectively we elected our leaders and will be held accountable for their deeds (like the whole of Egypt paying for Pharaoh’s evil decisions).

In the meantime, my fellow Believers, remain holy and set apart for the Lord. It can be lonely at times, you will be alienated from your friends and family. John 15:18 If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.19 If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.

Right now, there is no king (Jesus Christ) in our land. Everyone does what is right in their own eyes. In our personal time of judges, when everyone else, Lost and “Christians” alike, are choosing to serve their made up version of God…be like Joshua. Joshua 24:15b … but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord. Quietly and faithfully wait on God’s will to be fulfilled…Lamentations 3:26 It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the LORD.


5 Things I Wish Christians Would Realize About the Bible

I read this article a few days ago  http://www.relevantmagazine.com/god/5-things-i-wish-christians-would-admit-about-bible#9zRR2BymMJA3Xl8T.01   I was somewhat confused by what it was saying- it didn’t seem to say much of anything. After brewing for awhile, I realized that’s just it- Christians know very little about the Bible, there isn’t much for them to say on it! Christians may talk a lot about the Bible, but few actually read it, and fewer acting strive to study it. This probably creates many misconceptions about what it says and doesn’t say. So I’ve come up with my own 5 things I really wish Christians would grasp about the Word of God.

1. The Bible is a Powerful Book.

Isaiah 55:11 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. It isn’t possible to read the Bible without taking something away from it. It’s not always a good something, sometimes it’s confusion or anger, mostly from taking verses out of their context. For thousands of years, God uses the Holy Spirit to stir us up after we read (or hear) the Scriptures. Whether this is for our Salvation, a rebuke, an encouragement, or a conviction. Romans 10:17 says So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. If it were not for the Bible, no one could even have faith. How would we know what to have faith in? When everyone says different things, what is correct? The Word of God. Hearing the Word of God brings faith.

The Bible is so powerful, Jesus Christ Himself used it when the devil confronted Him. In Matthew 4 and Luke 4, Jesus is fasting when Satan tempts Him three times. Each time, Jesus responded with “It is written”, quoting the Bible of the time (Old Testament). Jesus could have removed Satan from His presence with a mere thought, but instead, He forces him down by quoting the Powerful Word. Satan is not heard from again in the Bible until the very last book, Revelation. Jesus’s Words, quoting the Bible, were just that powerful.

In 2 Peter 1, Peter is remembering when he, John, and James were on the Mount of Transfiguration (Matthew 17). They heard the audible voice of God the Father, personally saw the prophets descend from heaven, then saw Jesus Christ ascend into heaven. Here’s what Peter has to say when comparing this amazing experience to the Bible: 2 Peter 1:16c-19a …but were eyewitnesses of his majesty. 17 For he received from God the Father honour and glory, when there came such a voice to him from the excellent glory, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased. 18 And this voice which came from heaven we heard, when we were with him in the holy mount. 19 We have also a more sure word of prophecy;… Notice verse 19a, “We have also a more sure word of prophecy”, reading the next few verses puts it in context that he’s referring to the Scriptures. Peter, one of Jesus’s twelve, said the Bible was a more sure word than the physical, audible voice of God! If you think there is power in God’s voice (which there is), then there is more in the dusty Bible on your shelf!

2. The Bible is Pretty Clear.

This isn’t to say there are things people can struggle to understand or when read the first few times can be confusing. By in large though, I’d say the Bible is pretty easy to understand. Mark 12:37b And the common people heard him gladly. Christ taught common people, this was His target audience. The super educated of the time, the Pharisees, questioned, contradicted, and changed His Words (sound familiar to today?). His twelve disciples were mostly fishermen, a very common profession.  2 Corinthians 11:3 But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent beguiled Eve through his subtilty, so your minds should be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ. The Bible was written for common people and has an overall simple message.

 1 Corinthians 14:33a For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace… Again, not to say everything will be understood immediately after reading it. Many things are simple enough to understand at first glance, and many things require study. 2 Timothy 2:15 Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. The Bible is really not that hard to understand, but it’s hard for some people to believe and apply.

3. The Bible was Both Inspired and Dictated by God.

2 Peter 1:21 For the prophecy came not in old time by the will of man: but holy men of God spake as they were moved by the Holy Ghost. God moved inside of men and they wrote. Going to point #2 above, it’s really quite simple. God wrote the Bible through the hands of men. If men wrote the Bible, then it’s just like every other book on the planet. We, as a human race, can offer nothing good, pure, or holy: Romans 7:18a For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: and Romans 3:4a God forbid: yea, let God be true, but every man a liar;…  In Jeremiah, God refers to the heart as wicked 9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?

God is holy. 1 Peter 1:16b …Be ye holy; for I am holy.

Isaiah 6:3 And one cried unto another, and said, Holy, holy, holy, is the LORD of hosts: the whole earth is full of his glory.

Revelation 4:8b …and they rest not day and night, saying, Holy, holy, holy, Lord God Almighty, which was, and is, and is to come.

God, the holy one, is the only one who could have written the Bible through the hands of people. If He didn’t, the Bible couldn’t be pure. Psalm 12:6-7  The words of the Lord are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times.Thou shalt keep them, O Lord, thou shalt preserve them from this generation for ever. Not only are the Words of the Lord pure, but He will preserve them forever. Men did not and do not have the ability to do this.

4. The Bible is of No Private Interpretation.

People usually prefer to privately interpret the Bible to fit their agendas, and this is wrong of us. Partly this is just due to our human nature, we want something to be true so we force the Scriptures to read what we want instead of what they actually say. 2 Peter 1:20  Knowing this first, that no prophecy of the scripture is of any private interpretation.  How can this be, if men wrote the Bible and it’s in our human nature to push our own agendas? Because, this goes back to the previous point, men didn’t write the Bible…verse 21 says: For the prophecy came not in old time by the will of man: but holy men of God spake as they were moved by the Holy Ghost. The prophets wrote exactly what God wanted them to, not their opinions, not about their experiences, but what God told them to write. When we read the Word, we, too, should lay our opinions and experiences aside and do our best to read what God has to say. If we are truly humble in wanting to know what God thinks, the Holy Spirit will guide us. This is another reason to study our Bibles, so we can gain the entire pictures of what God wants us to believe and do. We must be willing to change what we think to match what He thinks. All our traditions we were taught as children, all our preconceived ideas about what the Bible says, all our politically correct ideas taught to us by the world, to bring God ultimate glory, we must be willing to forget our beliefs that do not line up with the Bible. Isaiah 55:6-8  Seek ye the Lord while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near: Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the Lord, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon. For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.

The Bereans knew the importance of comparing everything they heard and thought to the Bible. When Paul went to Berea to preach to them, they searched the Scriptures to make sure he was a true man of God and not a false prophet. Acts 17:11b …in that they [Bereans] received the word with all readiness of mind, and searched the scriptures daily, whether those things were so. They were wise to make sure everything matched up to what the written Word of God said.

5. Jesus Christ is the Bible.

God is not the book, I do not have my Bible on an altar where I bow down and worship it. If a physical Bible were to burn in a house fire, God would still be God. The Words, however, are Jesus Christ. John 1:1-3, 14a; 29 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. The same was in the beginning with God. All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.14 And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.15 John bare witness of him,… 29 The next day John seeth Jesus coming unto him, and saith, Behold the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world. The Bible is the very mind of Jesus Christ, God the Son. All we have to do if we want to know Him, is read. How sad it is that few Christians actually want to know Him enough to read His Book. So many Christians are struggling, don’t know where to go or what to do, are wondering where in the world God is to help them. Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

Jesus Christ in John chapter 1 is referred to as “the light”… In him was life; and the life was the light of men. And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not. Scripture is referred to as “the light” as well…2 Peter 1:19 We have also a more sure word of prophecy; whereunto ye do well that ye take heed, as unto a light that shineth in a dark place, until the day dawn, and the day star arise in your hearts: and in Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.

The Bible is more than “The Good Book”, a book that we read when we desperate, or the unused books sitting on the backs of the chairs in front of us at church. It is the mind of God.  Know His book to know Him. Here are some things King David, a man after God’s own heart (Acts 13:22), said about the Bible in Psalm 119:

1 Blessed are the undefiled in the way, who walk in the law of the Lord.Blessed are they that keep his testimonies, and that seek him with the whole heart.They also do no iniquity: they walk in his ways.

Thou hast commanded us to keep thy precepts diligently.

O that my ways were directed to keep thy statutes!

Then shall I not be ashamed, when I have respect unto all thy commandments.

I will praise thee with uprightness of heart, when I shall have learned thy righteous judgments.

I will keep thy statutes: O forsake me not utterly.

Wherewithal shall a young man cleanse his way? by taking heed thereto according to thy word.

10 With my whole heart have I sought thee: O let me not wander from thy commandments.

11 Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee.

12 Blessed art thou, O Lord: teach me thy statutes.

13 With my lips have I declared all the judgments of thy mouth.

14 I have rejoiced in the way of thy testimonies, as much as in all riches.

15 I will meditate in thy precepts, and have respect unto thy ways.

16 I will delight myself in thy statutes: I will not forget thy word.

17 Deal bountifully with thy servant, that I may live, and keep thy word.

18 Open thou mine eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of thy law.

19 I am a stranger in the earth: hide not thy commandments from me.

20 My soul breaketh for the longing that it hath unto thy judgments at all times.

21 Thou hast rebuked the proud that are cursed, which do err from thy commandments.

22 Remove from me reproach and contempt; for I have kept thy testimonies.

23 Princes also did sit and speak against me: but thy servant did meditate in thy statutes.

24 Thy testimonies also are my delight and my counselors.

25 My soul cleaveth unto the dust: quicken thou me according to thy word.

26 I have declared my ways, and thou heardest me: teach me thy statutes.

27 Make me to understand the way of thy precepts: so shall I talk of thy wondrous works.

28 My soul melteth for heaviness: strengthen thou me according unto thy word.

29 Remove from me the way of lying: and grant me thy law graciously.

30 I have chosen the way of truth: thy judgments have I laid before me.

31 I have stuck unto thy testimonies: O Lord, put me not to shame.

32 I will run the way of thy commandments, when thou shalt enlarge my heart.

33 Teach me, O Lord, the way of thy statutes; and I shall keep it unto the end.

34 Give me understanding, and I shall keep thy law; yea, I shall observe it with my whole heart.

35 Make me to go in the path of thy commandments; for therein do I delight.

36 Incline my heart unto thy testimonies, and not to covetousness.

37 Turn away mine eyes from beholding vanity; and quicken thou me in thy way.

38 Stablish thy word unto thy servant, who is devoted to thy fear.

39 Turn away my reproach which I fear: for thy judgments are good.

40 Behold, I have longed after thy precepts: quicken me in thy righteousness.

41 Let thy mercies come also unto me, O Lord, even thy salvation, according to thy word.

42 So shall I have wherewith to answer him that reproacheth me: for I trust in thy word.

43 And take not the word of truth utterly out of my mouth; for I have hoped in thy judgments.

44 So shall I keep thy law continually for ever and ever.

45 And I will walk at liberty: for I seek thy precepts.

46 I will speak of thy testimonies also before kings, and will not be ashamed.

47 And I will delight myself in thy commandments, which I have loved.

48 My hands also will I lift up unto thy commandments, which I have loved; and I will meditate in thy statutes.

49 Remember the word unto thy servant, upon which thou hast caused me to hope.

50 This is my comfort in my affliction: for thy word hath quickened me.

51 The proud have had me greatly in derision: yet have I not declined from thy law.

52 I remembered thy judgments of old, O Lord; and have comforted myself.

53 Horror hath taken hold upon me because of the wicked that forsake thy law.

54 Thy statutes have been my songs in the house of my pilgrimage.

55 I have remembered thy name, O Lord, in the night, and have kept thy law.

56 This I had, because I kept thy precepts.

57 Thou art my portion, O Lord: I have said that I would keep thy words.

58 I intreated thy favour with my whole heart: be merciful unto me according to thy word.

59 I thought on my ways, and turned my feet unto thy testimonies.

60 I made haste, and delayed not to keep thy commandments.

61 The bands of the wicked have robbed me: but I have not forgotten thy law.

62 At midnight I will rise to give thanks unto thee because of thy righteous judgments.

63 I am a companion of all them that fear thee, and of them that keep thy precepts.

64 The earth, O Lord, is full of thy mercy: teach me thy statutes.

65 Thou hast dealt well with thy servant, O Lord, according unto thy word.

66 Teach me good judgment and knowledge: for I have believed thy commandments.

67 Before I was afflicted I went astray: but now have I kept thy word.

68 Thou art good, and doest good; teach me thy statutes.

69 The proud have forged a lie against me: but I will keep thy precepts with my whole heart.

70 Their heart is as fat as grease; but I delight in thy law.

71 It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes.

72 The law of thy mouth is better unto me than thousands of gold and silver.

73 Thy hands have made me and fashioned me: give me understanding, that I may learn thy commandments.

74 They that fear thee will be glad when they see me; because I have hoped in thy word.

75 I know, O Lord, that thy judgments are right, and that thou in faithfulness hast afflicted me.

76 Let, I pray thee, thy merciful kindness be for my comfort, according to thy word unto thy servant.

77 Let thy tender mercies come unto me, that I may live: for thy law is my delight.

78 Let the proud be ashamed; for they dealt perversely with me without a cause: but I will meditate in thy precepts.

79 Let those that fear thee turn unto me, and those that have known thy testimonies.

80 Let my heart be sound in thy statutes; that I be not ashamed.

81 My soul fainteth for thy salvation: but I hope in thy word.

82 Mine eyes fail for thy word, saying, When wilt thou comfort me?

83 For I am become like a bottle in the smoke; yet do I not forget thy statutes.

84 How many are the days of thy servant? when wilt thou execute judgment on them that persecute me?

85 The proud have digged pits for me, which are not after thy law.

86 All thy commandments are faithful: they persecute me wrongfully; help thou me.

87 They had almost consumed me upon earth; but I forsook not thy precepts.

88 Quicken me after thy lovingkindness; so shall I keep the testimony of thy mouth.

89 For ever, O Lord, thy word is settled in heaven.

90 Thy faithfulness is unto all generations: thou hast established the earth, and it abideth.

91 They continue this day according to thine ordinances: for all are thy servants.

92 Unless thy law had been my delights, I should then have perished in mine affliction.

93 I will never forget thy precepts: for with them thou hast quickened me.

94 I am thine, save me: for I have sought thy precepts.

95 The wicked have waited for me to destroy me: but I will consider thy testimonies.

96 I have seen an end of all perfection: but thy commandment is exceeding broad.

97 O how love I thy law! it is my meditation all the day.

98 Thou through thy commandments hast made me wiser than mine enemies: for they are ever with me.

99 I have more understanding than all my teachers: for thy testimonies are my meditation.

100 I understand more than the ancients, because I keep thy precepts.

101 I have refrained my feet from every evil way, that I might keep thy word.

102 I have not departed from thy judgments: for thou hast taught me.

103 How sweet are thy words unto my taste! yea, sweeter than honey to my mouth!

104 Through thy precepts I get understanding: therefore I hate every false way.

105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.

106 I have sworn, and I will perform it, that I will keep thy righteous judgments.

107 I am afflicted very much: quicken me, O Lord, according unto thy word.

108 Accept, I beseech thee, the freewill offerings of my mouth, O Lord, and teach me thy judgments.

109 My soul is continually in my hand: yet do I not forget thy law.

110 The wicked have laid a snare for me: yet I erred not from thy precepts.

111 Thy testimonies have I taken as an heritage for ever: for they are the rejoicing of my heart.

112 I have inclined mine heart to perform thy statutes alway, even unto the end.

113 I hate vain thoughts: but thy law do I love.

114 Thou art my hiding place and my shield: I hope in thy word.

115 Depart from me, ye evildoers: for I will keep the commandments of my God.

116 Uphold me according unto thy word, that I may live: and let me not be ashamed of my hope.

117 Hold thou me up, and I shall be safe: and I will have respect unto thy statutes continually.

118 Thou hast trodden down all them that err from thy statutes: for their deceit is falsehood.

119 Thou puttest away all the wicked of the earth like dross: therefore I love thy testimonies.

120 My flesh trembleth for fear of thee; and I am afraid of thy judgments.

121 I have done judgment and justice: leave me not to mine oppressors.

122 Be surety for thy servant for good: let not the proud oppress me.

123 Mine eyes fail for thy salvation, and for the word of thy righteousness.

124 Deal with thy servant according unto thy mercy, and teach me thy statutes.

125 I am thy servant; give me understanding, that I may know thy testimonies.

126 It is time for thee, Lord, to work: for they have made void thy law.

127 Therefore I love thy commandments above gold; yea, above fine gold.

128 Therefore I esteem all thy precepts concerning all things to be right; and I hate every false way.

129 Thy testimonies are wonderful: therefore doth my soul keep them.

130 The entrance of thy words giveth light; it giveth understanding unto the simple.

131 I opened my mouth, and panted: for I longed for thy commandments.

132 Look thou upon me, and be merciful unto me, as thou usest to do unto those that love thy name.

133 Order my steps in thy word: and let not any iniquity have dominion over me.

134 Deliver me from the oppression of man: so will I keep thy precepts.

135 Make thy face to shine upon thy servant; and teach me thy statutes.

136 Rivers of waters run down mine eyes, because they keep not thy law.

137 Righteous art thou, O Lord, and upright are thy judgments.

138 Thy testimonies that thou hast commanded are righteous and very faithful.

139 My zeal hath consumed me, because mine enemies have forgotten thy words.

140 Thy word is very pure: therefore thy servant loveth it.

141 I am small and despised: yet do not I forget thy precepts.

142 Thy righteousness is an everlasting righteousness, and thy law is the truth.

143 Trouble and anguish have taken hold on me: yet thy commandments are my delights.

144 The righteousness of thy testimonies is everlasting: give me understanding, and I shall live.

145 I cried with my whole heart; hear me, O Lord: I will keep thy statutes.

146 I cried unto thee; save me, and I shall keep thy testimonies.

147 I prevented the dawning of the morning, and cried: I hoped in thy word.

148 Mine eyes prevent the night watches, that I might meditate in thy word.

149 Hear my voice according unto thy lovingkindness: O Lord, quicken me according to thy judgment.

150 They draw nigh that follow after mischief: they are far from thy law.

151 Thou art near, O Lord; and all thy commandments are truth.

152 Concerning thy testimonies, I have known of old that thou hast founded them for ever.

153 Consider mine affliction, and deliver me: for I do not forget thy law.

154 Plead my cause, and deliver me: quicken me according to thy word.

155 Salvation is far from the wicked: for they seek not thy statutes.

156 Great are thy tender mercies, O Lord: quicken me according to thy judgments.

157 Many are my persecutors and mine enemies; yet do I not decline from thy testimonies.

158 I beheld the transgressors, and was grieved; because they kept not thy word.

159 Consider how I love thy precepts: quicken me, O Lord, according to thy lovingkindness.

160 Thy word is true from the beginning: and every one of thy righteous judgments endureth for ever.

161 Princes have persecuted me without a cause: but my heart standeth in awe of thy word.

162 I rejoice at thy word, as one that findeth great spoil.

163 I hate and abhor lying: but thy law do I love.

164 Seven times a day do I praise thee because of thy righteous judgments.

165 Great peace have they which love thy law: and nothing shall offend them.

166 Lord, I have hoped for thy salvation, and done thy commandments.

167 My soul hath kept thy testimonies; and I love them exceedingly.

168 I have kept thy precepts and thy testimonies: for all my ways are before thee.

169 Let my cry come near before thee, O Lord: give me understanding according to thy word.

170 Let my supplication come before thee: deliver me according to thy word.

171 My lips shall utter praise, when thou hast taught me thy statutes.

172 My tongue shall speak of thy word: for all thy commandments are righteousness.

173 Let thine hand help me; for I have chosen thy precepts.

174 I have longed for thy salvation, O Lord; and thy law is my delight.

175 Let my soul live, and it shall praise thee; and let thy judgments help me.

176 I have gone astray like a lost sheep; seek thy servant; for I do not forget thy commandments.



 If your Bible is falling apart, your life probably isn’t.



10 things I’d rather do instead of paying on student loans.

I attended college for 5 years including one transfer and three major changes. I accumulated a lot of debt. Today, we pay roughly $450 a month on student debt. Sound like a lot? Well, you’re right, it is a lot. That’s $5,400 per year. This was a major mistake, probably the biggest one I’ve ever made in my life (and I’ve made some pretty big mistakes). Let’s see what we could use that money for in the space of a year instead of putting it in the pockets of big banks…

1) We could take our family of four to Disney World…twice.

According to http://wdwprepschool.com/how-much-does-it-cost-to-go-to-disney-world/, it would cost our frugal family about $2,300 to visit Disney World for a week. Taking my children to Disney World is a dream of mine. I was able to go as a child and want them to experience the once-in-a-lifetime fun as well. However, for this to be possible, we would probably have to take out (another) loan. Needless to say, this is not something we want to do. So, Disney World may not be something my children get to experience…thanks student loans and college experience!

2) I could buy 1,350 Starbucks frappucinos.

I love a good $4 Starbucks frappucino, though 3-4 per day may be a little much. I rarely buy frappcinos, I cannot justify spending that much money on a simple drink. I received a Starbucks gift card for my birthday this year…awesome! I already bought one (I also had a dollar off coupon, double yay!) and plan on making the gift card last awhile. Sometimes I will buy the McDonald’s knock-off versions, which are good but really don’t compare. Though I also can’t justify spending money on McFrappe’s very often either.

3) I could buy 2,700 nail polishes.

I also like painting my nails. It’s a fun hobby, I paint them probably once a week or whenever they get badly chipped. I’m not usually tempted to buy nail polish (I averaged them at $2 per bottle), unless I go down the make-up/nail polish isle. Then I see all the colors and sparkle. I’m a pretty sensible woman though, I know it’s really not worth it.

4) We could take our family out to eat 135 times.

I’m not talking fast food and I’m also not talking super fancy restaurant. Just middle of the road, reasonably priced kids’ meals type joint. As it is, we go out to eat too often. Eating at home is so much cheaper, I’d really like to limit it to a handful of times a year (for birthdays, anniversaries, etc.) If we didn’t have student loans to pay on, we could go out to eat 2-3 times a week, if we wanted to.

5) We could go to the movie theater 67 times.

The last time my husband and I had been to see a movie at the theater was in 2011, so I don’t remember how much movie tickets and concessions cost! It’s nearly impossible to find prices online, so I’ll just estimate $20 a person to see a movie, get a popcorn, candy, and drink. There’s a reason we don’t go to movies, view it at home in a few months is so so much cheaper. My son, in his 4 years, has never been to a movie theater.

6) We could have another baby.

And not have to make payments! My daughter’s cesarean and other medical expenses cost about $3,000. So with $5,400 we blow each year on 5 years of attending classes, we could have another baby and have plenty leftover for diapers!

7) We could take our family of four to Great Wolf Lodge, 27 times.

Great Wolf Lodge is a water park/resort where my husband and I spent our honeymoon. We drove to the one in Pennsylvania, but if we just went to the one in Ohio, in the space of a year we could spend 27 nights there. This includes room (about $140 for a standard 4 person room), waterpark passes, and $60 a day for food. Visiting Great Wolf Lodge for a weekend is something we plan on doing when our children are older, but it definitely won’t be 27 nights!

8) My husband and I could go on 77 Wasabi Steakhouse dates.

Implying “expensive” dates. Wasabi Steakhouse is our favorite restaurant for date night, we go there once every 1-2 years. It’s about $70 for the two of us, which is why we go there so infrequently! The food is delicious, and we love watching the chefs make it on the huge grill in front of us. We could go on 77 expensive dates in the course of a year.

9) Less work, less stress. More financial security, more peace.

My husband doesn’t have a 9-5, he has a 6-6. He has two weeks vacation which he doesn’t take. (Except maybe visiting my grandma for 3-4 days.) When the bank account runs low, he takes a vacation check and continues to work as usual. I don’t want to sound like I always stress over money, I don’t. I know God’s promises to take care of His children, He will provide for us. He provides for us through my husband, who works so very hard and long it’s pitiful, and the amount of guilt I feel is incredible.

10) We could actually have a savings account.

If we had devoted all $5,400 a year to a savings account, since the time I graduated in 2009 to today, we would have $27,000 saved up. By the time my loans are totally paid off, maybe another 15 years, we would have $81,000. Instead, I was deceived and we will have spent $81,000 on something I didn’t need (and ultimately didn’t want).



The One Sided-ness of Politicial Correctness

lack of pc

I am not offended by this comment, even though I have been a member of a (Independent) Baptist church for the last 8 years, I’m really not. I do not consider myself a Baptist, I consider myself a born-again Christian who happens to go to a Baptist church. And, frankly, I don’t believe in this silly concept of being offended, but that’s for another blog post. I also do not want to come off as a wanna-be martyr, I do not consider myself one. The little persecution I have received from family and friends isn’t even worth mentioning when compared to those of my faith who have been tortured and killed. Anabaptists were hated by both Catholics and Protestants back several hundred years ago, and many were burned at the stake. Today, Christians in the Mid-East are fleeing for their lives, hoping they will make it. This isn’t a “poor me I’m a Christian and people hate me” post.

This is a vent about the one sided-ness of political correctness. Ironically, the man in red is a pastor of a church (howbeit a very liberal one), and I don’t really know anything about the man in green. The liberalness of the pastor in red’s church means he would never, ever say anything negative or stereotypical of certain groups of people: homosexuals, Muslims, transgenders, feminists, etc. However, it is evident certain groups are outside his scope of concern and “Christian love”. While the pastor in red did not say the comment, he didn’t rebuke or rebuttal it either. Would he have if the comment was about a previously mentioned group? I don’t know, but my guess is probably.

I’m also not too sure what this comment about Baptists means. Perhaps Baptists who are part of the “Baptist Organization of America” (or whatever it’s called) live by their own rules. I know many churches add and take away from Scripture, including Baptist ones, but also the pastor in red’s church. Perhaps they’re referring to those kind of IFBs. I don’t know. But really, that’s not the point. Lumping all Baptists in the same group is not tolerant, accepting, or loving. They would be livid if I lumped all homosexuals together as acting a certain way. Political correctness covers homosexuals, it doesn’t cover Christians. And evidently it especially doesn’t cover Baptists.

(I hid their identities because I believe privacy is important.)